Lost in Love Paradise

Geez, why is the love disease so freaking chronic??

It's almost like, you never know when you're going to get in, but when it catches up, you're screwed! I am so confused right now. I'd also like to call my "lover" a victim. Seriously, heed warning to anyone that I fall in love with because you're TRAPPED after that. I will not let you go.


But the thing is.. if you haven't told me your TRUE feelings, but you DO love me, then TELL ME!

Anyways...

My heart, right now, is wanting someone of which I cannot contain. I mean my feelings for this person are SO FREAKING STRONG. I love him. I'm not IN love with him. I just love him. but we're friends. Really close friends. And to break any boundaries would be wrong. impossible really. I think he wants something to be there. To be that peice of jigsaw in my puzzle. I know I can't contain my feelings. I know I won't be able to keep it in much longer. Some way, some how he's going to find out. It's going to suck when he does. Because I feel as though he won't feel the saw way back. But get this people, after he finds out, I can still love the fuck out of him. And I will. Forever. 

I know I've said those words before, but I didn't know who I was dealing with. I didn't know I was getting involved with the stupidest jackass in the world. But this guy, I know, is NOT a jackass. I know he's so comfortable with anything. He's calm. He's cool. I wish, just for a second, that he would tell me, even if it's a lie (but I'd prefer it not to be) that he loved me back. 

i love you.